All Quiet on the Neston Front

Hey kids,

Yeah. Been a bit quiet of late, been without a laptop for a while so not been able to write anything.

How’s it going? Hope you’re all well.

What have I been upto? Hmmm. Not much to be honest. It’s been over a year since I actually went into work. I was signed off on the sick last March and then subsequently ‘let go’ in October. I’m looking for new work but in all honesty I’m not entirely sure I’m actually ready.

This all sounds very ambiguous and it’s probably because I don’t talk about it much, you see, I suffer quite badly from anxiety attacks and severe depression. It’s one of those things that when I worked for the Benefit Agency, way back at the turn of the century, I thought it was a piss take. However, having suffered from it for quite a few years now, I know very well that it is not.

I don’t really know why I’m telling you people this, it’s probably because I know no-one really reads this shit, so I guess it’s just a confession to myself

Ian, I know you’re suffering and I know it’s hard but keep fighting.

Yeah, I have to tell myself, otherwise I’d be lost in a pit of despair and Netflix.

Oh, and I fucking loved Captain America: Civil War. I might write a little bit about that later.

It’s good to be back… I think x

Oh, Captain. My Captain.

 

I really wanted to write about Captain America: Civil War. I even got eight paragraphs into a review of sorts, but my brain is an absolute mess and I can’t write anything particularly cohesive at the moment.

I will say a few things about Captain America instead.

He makes me want to be a better person, a stronger person. Yes, Iron Man is cool, but Captain America is the epitome of all that is good. I sat watching Civil War wondering how anyone could actually disagree with Captain America. Well, turns out it was just guilt on Stark’s behalf because he fucked up big time in Age of Ultron.

I cried watching Civil War. I didn’t blubber, but my eyes filled with tears along with Steve’s when he heard of Peggy’s passing. My eyes filled with tears when Sharon used one of my favourite Cap quotes. My heart warmed when Sam & Bucky looked on as Cap got a kiss.

I’m rambling. I’m rambling because I love Cap.

Here’s a few examples of why I love Cap.

Bullies;

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You Move;

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My Best Girl;

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Too Busy;

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An Ideal;

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I’d think of more, but I want to go and watch Captain America now x